Monday, February 15, 2016

In Between

I'm just in between two extremes.
Extreme happiness and extreme nostalgia.
With you I know that I'll always have something.
Not good. Not terrible.
To hold on to and never let go.
Without you I have a thousand dreams calling my name.
I'm lost. So lost.
Tell me you want me.
Tell me you don't.
Just tell me something.
Say anything.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

A Young Conservative's Guide to CPAC

I have gone to CPAC twice now and both experiences were great, but totally different. The first time I went I was 18 and brand new to twitter (So I was clueless!). I found a blog post found here: written by @jimmiebjr that was really beneficial to my CPAC experience. If you're anything like me, you like to be prepared and have somewhat of an idea of what you will be doing for the time that you are there. I hope that this post will help!
1. Contrary to popular belief,  CPAC does not stand for Conservatives Party And Crash.
The purpose of this conference is to gain knowledge and inspiration as a conservative and to network with other conservatives and organizations. During the hours of the conference have an agenda/schedule prepared of the panels and speakers you would like to see. The schedule usually slows down after 4pm so that's when you can fit in your networking by grabbing drinks and dinner with friends.
  •  If you are a student be sure to register for and attend the Student Only Events. There are usually 3 of them. The student luncheon is a great one! (Just be sure to check the schedule and make sure there aren't any speakers you want to miss at the same time. I was bummed that I missed Mitt Romney speak last year.) 
  • Don't Miss The Panels. Most of the speakers in the main ballroom are recorded so you can watch them afterwards, the panels are not. So prioritize them! Last year, I went to an awesome Pop Culture Panel featuring Jason Mattera, Chuck Woolery, and Stephen Baldwin. I also went to a panel featuring Ben Shapiro. The panels also have Q&A sessions where you can get specific questions answered. These events are usually small enough where you can actually go and talk to the panelists afterwards. Just be considerate of their time and of other attendees.
  • Stroll through the Exhibit Hall. There is a lot of opportunity in this because you can network with different organizations, find out what they are all about and how being connected with them can grow your conservative influence. You can also find all of the books for the book signings here. Also, you never know who is going to be around. My first year I saw Andrea Tantaros and got to talk to her for about 45 minutes because no one else knew she was there!
  • The main ballrooms always fill up quickly. Be sure to allow time to grab a seat so you don't miss your speaker!
  • Keep a notebook and a few pens handy. Also bring business/personal cards.
2. I'm a major foodie and like to know where food will be at all times.
CPAC has moved locations this year and so one major concern of mine is that the food supply will be limited. I have looked over the National Harbor restaurant list and here are some recommendations and a guesstimated price key. (I live in Texas so some of the recommendations are from friends that know the National Harbor area better than I do!) I'm kind of particular so if I would personally choose this restaurant I will put a "Jenny Pick!" next to it.
Morning Coffee:
  • Java Coast (Located at Gaylord) $$
  • Mayorga Coffee Roasters $

Fast Food:
  • Baja Fresh (Mexican Grill) $$
  • Chidogos (Chicago Style Hotdogs)  $-$$
  • Elevation Burger $-$$ (Jenny Pick!)
  • Freshii (Organic/Nutritious Bowls/Salads) $$
  • McDonalds $
  • Potbelly Sandwich Works $-$$ (Recommended by @the_zarf) (Jenny Pick!)
  • Subway $-$$
Casual Dining:
  • Bond 45 $$-$$$ (Recommended by @OHCONSERVATISM)
  • Cadillac Ranch (American Grill) $$-$$$ (Jenny Pick!)
  • Fiorella Pizzeria $$-$$$
  • Grace's Mandarin (Sushi/Asian) $$$-$$$$ (Recommended by @DanIsett)
  • Harrington's Pub & Kitchen (Pub) $$
  • Ketchup (American Cuisine) $$-$$$ (Recommended by @the_zarf and @OHCONSERVATISM)
  • McCormick & Schmick's (Seafood) $$$-$$$$
  • McLoone's Pier House (Burgers/Seafood) $$-$$$ (Jenny Pick!)
  • Nando's Peri Peri (Portuguese) $-$$ (Jenny Pick!)
  • National Pastime Bar & Grill (Located in the Lower Atrium of Gaylord) $$-$$$
  • Nature's Table (Organic Wraps/Salads) $$ (Jenny Pick!)
  • Old Hickory Steakhouse (Located at Gaylord) $$$$$ (Not recommended due to price)
  • Pienza Restaurant (Buffet Style) (Located at Gaylord) $$$$
  • Public House (Pub) $$
  • Rosa Mexicano $$ (Need a quick lunch? They have a fast "Lunch Crunch" special)
  • Thai Pavilion $-$$
  • Pinkberry
  • CakeLove
3. Things You Should Consider!
  • Plan Ahead: Get an idea of what you will be doing and ask around. Don't leave yourself out because you didn't get the memo!

  • Be Responsible:
  • If you go out to a bar or order drinks remember that people are watching and you have a reputation to consider. Don't drink so much that you are hungover the next day and miss the conference. Don't tweet about how drunk you are. If you aren't 21, don't drink at all.
  • Dress Tastefully. If you think your outfit might be inappropriate, change. Remember your reputation. Do you want to be remembered for your butt or your rebuttal? Have some respect for yourself. Remember we aren't the party begging for free birth control!   
  • Bring a portable phone charger!
 You'll be tweeting all day and your battery will die before the hour is up! This will help lengthen the time you have to tweet without being glued to an outlet.
Here's a good one:
If I missed anything please feel free to comment below!
God Bless,
Jenny J

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Is It Too Early To Talk About Empowerment?: My Morning Rant on How Women Can Empower Themselves

I have to be honest, as a conservative, christian woman I have always been skeptical of the modern ideology of the word empowerment. It has somehow been twisted to being synonymous with loose and promiscuous, and like I mentioned above, I have a reputation to otherwise maintain. So being my stubborn self, whenever I saw or heard the word "empowerment" I always ignored it and deemed it unnecessary..until recently. Empowerment actually sounds like an appealing term, as it should be. Now how can I be empowered without having access to needing birth control or having an abortion? I think I've figured it out.
So the last time I checked (and honestly it's been a while so if this is wrong correct me, please!) we have campaigned that all women are beautiful as they are: fat, skinny, black, white, Asian, short, tall, and everything in between. I mean One Direction even has a song about it! So if we are all deemed beautiful (which I believe is justified because we are) we shouldn't find our worth in our appearance. Now liberals want us all to separate our empowerment out by race, like just because we all come from different cultures that somehow empowers us to be treated differently accordingly. I don't believe we should allow society to justify how it treats us when we struggle. A problem is a problem, we all face them. But Jenny, you don't understand. It's harder for a ________ woman to handle ________. Oh really? I think women are strong enough to handle whatever is facing them, and differences in appearance shouldn't allow for justifications in unleveling the playing field.
I am so tired of the strange paradox society puts on women - that we are weaker than men so we need to constantly strive to be stronger than men, so that we can be equal to them? That sounds like a lot of work to not achieve something that frankly is impossible to do. Women and men have different roles as human beings. If we didn't, why would God make both? Wouldn't it have been easier on Him to just create humankind? But that's beside the point. I understand that there can be injustices in pay and job selection, I'm not discounting that, but why torture yourself for financial equality? If you find your worth in how much money you make, you will never feel worthy, especially if your basis of equality is comparing yours to someone else's. Everyone is handed unique circumstances in life and we also have free will to make our own choices, good and bad. Why not strive to make the best of your own situation? Find a job you love doing. I understand that you may have bills to pay and mouths to feed, that doesn't mean you've lost the opportunity to serve cheerfully. Don't think of reasons to complain about your job, you chose to accept it because it would provide for you in some way. Find ways to make the best of it. If you hate it and find it unbearable, then find something else, there's nothing stopping you from doing what you want. Are you going to let anyone get in your way? I didn't think so.
On another note, I am not a fan of encouraging singleness. This is a touchy subject because there are millions of unique situations, so I am approaching with caution. Single parenting is perhaps the toughest, most stressful job on the planet. Why? Because parenting wasn't created to be a one-person job, and it isn't a job you can ever quit. You have to constantly strive to provide for another human being as well as yourself and juggle everything else that comes your way. There is no shame in that. But there should also be no shame in admitting that you just can't do it all on your own and searching for a man that can provide for you and your child's needs. Oh you don't need a man? You must be completely satisfied in your situation and have no complaints. It's our natural desire to have a man to love and take care of us. That's what we chase after through our lives and we all deserve a life partner that will acknowledge and care for our worth as individuals. I'm tired of society convincing women that they can hit a point in life where they have exhausted their need to have a man and that they deserve something else. I'm not ashamed to say I need to feel loved and adored and that only a man can fulfill that desire.
I would argue that involving ourselves in relationships with other people is the most empowering we can do. We trust ourselves enough to recognize that we can't do it all on our own and that we need someone to support us. We also trust that we know how to identify that person when we find them through knowing our worth and who could complement it with theirs. I think we've lost our power through the years by settling for lazy men. We have become frustrated and rewritten the rules to fit our own desires instead of what we deserve. Admit it, you've convinced yourself a time or two that you can make a man like you. If you have to convince yourself that you have to convince someone else to like you, well then you don't like yourself that much and need to find your worth first. Guys go after what they want. So if he isn't courteous and respectful towards you, it's obvious he doesn't want you. Chivalry isn't dead, so don't settle for a deadbeat. No excuses, no exceptions. Empower yourself through holding yourself to a higher value. When you do that, others will recognize the difference in your attitude and your light will shine through to them. If that isn't empowering, I don't know what is. #LadySmarts #DontWasteThePretty

Also! I found this post that spoke to me and thought I should share it on here! Check it out!

God Bless,
Jenny J

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Happily Ever Afters: A Single Girl's Advice Guide For Marriage

For a girl that hasn't had a lot of experience in relationships, I've apparently been given enough wisdom to be thought of as someone people can come to and ask for advice on the subject. To tell you the truth, I am very judgmental and have always been skeptical about entering relationships. I don't know where that attitude came from, but I am thankful for it! I have had several married friends ask me how I could be so happy and content with my life and not searching for love to make me happy, and well, that isn't the full picture. I've always had a crush or someone to love in my mind and in practice. Someone to pray for, talk about/with, and even ponder about how practical it would be for us to be together. I have decided that my basic want in a relationship is for a man to love me despite life's circumstances. During my high school years my youth pastor gave us advice that always stuck out in my mind. To paraphrase his words - When looking for a relationship run towards God with everything you have, and look from side to side and see who is running along side you. That just clicks in my mind as practical advice that can work no matter the circumstances. I'm not here to dole out words on how to have a perfect relationship, but I want to give a clear, fresh perspective about love. Now, when you're single you have to learn how to live for yourself. You learn about your own likes and dislikes and how to be happy on your own. You know that someone is out there for you to be with, but that doesn't stop you from living as usual. It's not like you pray to God and say "God give me my prince charming, yeah I'll be the one watching TV on the couch until he comes along!" You continue on and probably even search him out, and there is nothing wrong with this! Now once you find the one, you plan the wedding of your dreams and live in wedded bliss, hopefully for your entire marriage. That's a perfectly realistic goal and don't ever let anyone tell you differently. But what if that isn't how your relationship turns out? What if you and your love have some struggles and become distracted with life? This is unfortunately a common scenario. If this ever becomes the case I want you to think about this thought - You were single before your married life and knew you weren't complete by being alone. You needed someone to be your life partner, to love and care for and that loves and cares for you in return. You would do anything to find them and make them a permanent fixture in your life. Now you have them, now they are permanent.. what's changed? You are probably going through a legitimate disagreement or circumstance that separates you both from the oneness of your relationship. Don't let these temporary struggles deceive you into thinking that life will somehow be perfect by disconnecting from them emotionally, mentally, or even physically. Take a step back and realistically think about how you would be able to handle all of these struggles without them. That thought should be unbearably painful to consider. This is where the "for better or worse" part of your vows should be taken into account. Go back to your wedding day and remember how you felt when you said those words, probably completely blissful! Somehow we think that not talking about the problems will make things better and somehow make the problems go away, which is totally bizarre in my mind. Now I'm not saying to scream, yell and argue about it, but legitimately discuss the issues. Instead of pushing all of your relationship's struggles under a rug and holding a grudge about them, take a deep breath and examine the big picture through a different perspective. Try to look at it through their eyes with their feelings and talk to them about it over and over again until the problem is settled. This process will probably be painful, but resolving problems instead of avoiding them is a freeing experience that develops personal growth. Think about how much stronger your relationship will be, and how much happier you both will be! Don't think of marriage as one big happily ever after, but as constant happily ever afters. Remember why you married each other and rekindle that unconditional love that you both are capable of having, because you both did - on your wedding day and that should just be the beginning of your love. Be thankful for your struggles, because they bring "after-the-struggle" strength and happiness. Have faith in your partner's willingness to work through life's circumstances. Have faith in God to take care of your relationship's circumstances. Remember the commitment you made when you said "I do" is permanent, and be thankful that is so! I wholeheartedly wish you the best in your relationship.

God Bless,
Jenny J

Monday, August 6, 2012

Where to Begin

If I only knew where to begin
If regret was a sin
I'd have a thousand prayers to make
because of this heartache
How could I lose you
when you were my muse
Here I thought we were both amused at our jokes
I refuse to believe that it was all a hoax
If only I could coax you into speaking to me again
You said you would always be my friend
I know I wear my heart on my sleeve
but I didn't know that would make you leave
I weep myself to sleep dreaming of your messages
Longing for another conversation
about the constellations
We never got the chance to meet
though I would gladly hold your hand in the middle of the street
You say that I'm mean to you but that simply isn't true
my intent is not to bug you but to love you
To love you
To love you
To love you
I love you
and I will always mean that
So when the stars align
and we see each other for the first time
Meet me in the doorway as the rain pours down
and let's explore your town
And If I'm not what you are looking for
no apologies would need to be said
no eyes would be cried red because
I would walk away content with the fact
that I wouldn't have to forever wonder
if things would have ever worked out between us.
It's like what the Goo Goo Dolls say in "Iris"
I just want you to know who I am.

God Bless,
Jenny J

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Unfinished Poems Series Two (Poem One)

No one fights for something [someone] they don't want. I want you.
Apologies are appreciated [the bravest words one can express]. Strength.
Communication is key [what makes me smile every day]. Happiness.
Every minute has been valuable to my [in] understanding [each other]. Timing is everything.
Willingness speaks volumes and comes from the heart [soul]. Say yes.

God Bless,
Jenny J

*Every poem I write is just a bunch of scribbles I think of that I jumble together.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Distant Daydream

I stare at the spaces between my fingers
and imagine what it will be like-
when we stand face to face for the first time
You will no longer be a distant daydream
Instead you will bring life to the butterflies
I pretend that it will be pouring rain as lightning fills the sky
perhaps in a subconscious attempt to get inside
Rain drips from my hair and my eyeliner smears
You pull me close and we stand in a wondrous silence
Seconds turn into minutes, yet no word is spoken
You grasp my hand and just like our fingers
Our lives become Intertwined.

God Bless,
Jenny J